An Important Announcement!!

Today my wonderfully sweet husband came home from work and announced that he had not one, but two surprises for me.  He then scurried off and shut himself in the study while I was making dinner.  He told me that under No Uncertain Terms was I to come down to the study, and that if I needed him I should just yell from the end of the hall.

Me?  No problemo, yo.  For two surprises, I’d stay out and keep cooking away as long as necessary.

Finally after dinner, just as we were sitting down to watch the finale of The Biggest Loser, Alex said it was Surprise Time.


He reached up to the computer and typed in

Jessica Laird?  That is me!

That’s right, folks.  This girl has her own domain name!  This is where the Important Announcement comes in, because a new life and a new name means it’s time for a new blog.  Or at least, a cool new look under my cool new name.

SO.  From now on, when you are searching for my blog, A Day In The Life of Jess, please type in  Because well, the name is Jessica Laird, now!

Also, if you are currently subscribed to this site, you should update your subscription using the following link:

If you come to the site you are currently on, sadly you will not find it updated beyond this point.  And who wants that?  No one, that’s who.  So make the switch, folks!

And now, I’m sure you are all wondering what surprise #2 was, eh?  Well, I shall tell you.  Surprise #2 was MacGormet!  MacGormet is a totally awesome recipe/menu planning computer program that I casually mentioned I had my eye on.  IT IS SO AWESOME!

Fancy, you win the awesome award for the day.  You’re totally my favorite – thanks for the sweet surprises tonight!  I love you!

See you all at the new site!

Good Morning to You All!


It feels as though it has been about 8 years since I posted anything on here, when in reality it has only been a little over a week.  But goodness gracious, what a week it has been!  In case you are majorly out of the loop, the reason I have beenn MIA lately is because I JUST GOT MARRIED!

That’s right.  Married.  And loving every minute of it.

Remember that May Plan I told you about awhile back?  Well, it is in full swing, and has not left much time for blogging.  This is exceptionally unfortunate, because I have never had so many big things happen to me in such a short period of time.  Shall we review?   Yes, actually, we shall.

In the past two weeks:

-Alex and I graduated from Cedarville University

-Alex went to Iowa to move into our apartment

-I finalized wedding plans


-We went on a week-long, 100% amazing honeymoon to ORLANDO, FLORIDA

-My not-so-little sister graduated from high school

-We made the 10 hour trip from Columbus, OH to Cedar Rapids, IA (most of which was veeeery late at night)

-We moved into our new apartment (YAY!!)

-Alex started his  new job

-I wandered around like a zombie due to pure exhaustion, and even unpacked a little

In two weeks, ya’ll.  TWO WEEKS.  I’m not sure how I am even awake right now to tell you about it.

And now, Alex is off at work, and our house is buried somewhere under the boxes, bubble wrap, and insane amount of wedding gifts we opened last night.  Seriously, you all are amazing.  We are blessed to have so many of you as friends and family.  If you were able to spend our special day with us, if you sent a gift or card, or if you had us in your prayers – we thank you from the bottom of our hearts!!

I would LOVE to sit and describe to you all this awesomeness that has been my life the last two weeks, but the wedding manicure and the mile-long to-do list is preventing me from such things.  I promise that over the next week or so, I will take breaks from unpacking to tell you all about these fun events – and maybe even post some pictures 😉

Until then, know that I am alive and well and loving life as Jessica Nicole Laird.

May 14th

Once Upon A Cotton Ball – Epilogue

Preface  Part 1  Part 2  Part 3  Part 4  Part 5  Part 6  

Part 7  Part 8  Part 9 Part 10  Part 11 Part 12 Part 13

We said …

Today is the day.

In just a few short hours, Jess will put on a beautiful white dress and Alex will suit up.  With friends, family, and loved ones gathered together from all over the country, we will stand in front of Jess’ home church and commit to our  lived to God and to each other.  What a beautiful and special day it will be!

Today will be a flurry of activity, but we wanted to pause and let you all know where we are headed from here.  Through reading our story, you’ve caught a glimpse of the thrilling journey we’ve been on over the past several years, and some of you have walked right along beside us through it.  But whoever you are, you hopefully know us a little better now, and are probably wondering what is next.

Well, after the wedding day we have all been waiting for, we are jetting off to an undisclosed honeymoon location, which Alex has been hard at work planning for months.  After a week of enjoying wherever it is we are headed, we’ll be moving to Cedar Rapids, Iowa.  In just over a week, Alex will be starting a job at Rockwell Collins as a software engineer.  A few weeks later, Jess will be beginning an internship at Aid to Women, a Christian crisis pregnancy center, and then will be pursuing a full-time ministry position.

The weeks and months ahead will be an incredibly exciting time for us, as we begin our new life as Alex and Jessica Laird.  God has brought us a long way – from that first meeting when Alex choked down a cotton ball all the way down the aisle to “I do” – and we could not be more thankful to Him for the indescribable ways that He has blessed us.

With that, we would like to say thank you.  Whether you are a complete stranger or someone who watched it all happen firsthand, we truly hope you have enjoyed reading our story as much as we loved writing it together.  Our relationship would not be what it is without the thoughts, prayers, encouragement and support that many have given us from day one.

To those of you who will celebrate with us today, we can’t wait to share in the joy of it together with you!  Thank you so much for being a part of our life.

In Christ,

Alex & Jess

“I am my beloved’s and my beloved is mine.”

-Song of Songs 6:3

Once Upon A Cotton Ball – Part 13

Preface  Part 1  Part 2  Part 3  Part 4  Part 5  

Part 6  Part 7  Part 8  Part 9 Part 10  Part 11 Part 12

He said …

“And that’s the last one,” my Dad said, tossing the final bag from the van into the living room.

“Sweet!  Thanks for all your help, guys.”

Dad pulled me into a hug and smacked me on the back.  “No problem.  That’s what parents are here for, right?”

I sunk down to the couch and looked around the dirty walls, ragged carpet, and stained floors.  It was exciting to be living off campus this school year—even if our house did look like it belonged in a slum.

The parents took Jess and I out for dinner.  Afterward, we huddled around for hugs and prayers, said our goodbyes, and they got into the van for the long journey back to Iowa.  And while they were making the treacherous journey back to Iowa, Jess and I stood in the doorway to my kitchen, looking over the disgusting mess that was my uncleaned house.

“You know.  My parents own apartments, and when we were younger we used to have to clean them.”  I waved one hand toward the scum-filled kitchen and the other to the rest of the house.  “This is the … second most disgusting thing I’ve ever seen.”

“Wow.  I’d hate to hear about the most disgusting thing,” Jess said as she covered her mouth, presumably to keep from vomiting.

“I wouldn’t tell you about it even if you asked.  Well, show we clean?”

“That sounds like my idea of a romantic night!”

And clean we did.  For hours.  Upon hours.  The place was so disgusting in fact, taking so many hours to clean, that we had to break the cleaning event up into two days.  But as we cleaned, we did what we always did; we cranked up the tunes, sang loudly and off key, talked about our lives, laughed, and had the best time we possibly could.  Because we were together.

We reminisced of camp and how we both missed it—it was nice to have Jess to empathize with now.  We talked about the crazy things we had done over the summer, the fun dates we had gone on, the best walks we had taken.  She told me how much she loved my family and the way we interacted with each other.  And I refrained from telling her that I wanted her to be a part of that family.

We had only been dating for three short months at this point, but we both knew where our relationship was going.  We both had known where it was going before it had even officially started.  It was probably one of those things we both knew from birth, we just hadn’t met each other yet—and apparently when we did meet each other, we were really bad at catching on.  Anyway, in the last few weeks, we had become comfortable enough with our future that we began teasing each other about it.  Specifically, Jess began teasing me about proposing.  She was, as most girls who are in love are, very anxious about getting a sparkly ring.

We thought we knew everything about each other before we started dating.  But the summer brought exciting adventures for the both of us, and taught us new ways to investigate each others lives.  We were closer than we had ever been—and most people we knew didn’t even know that was possible after observing a friendship like ours had been.  Honestly, neither did we.

“When are they getting here?!”  Jess was jumping up and down on the couch.  I was standing calmly on the floor, looking up at her with my arms crossed.

“Will you get down from there?  You’re going to kill yourself.  And they’ll be here any minute.”

Jenna and Joey, my sister and brother-in-law, were visiting for the weekend.  We had big plans.  Young’s Jersey Dairy for ice cream, smoothies in Yellow Springs, food from somewhere delicious.  And, if possible, they were going to stay for the party on Saturday.  The annual festivities of  Pyhäinpäivä.

Jenna was, how you say, great with child, so everything the family did seemed to be slowed immensely by her painfully lethargic pace.  “They probably stopped to pee.  Or Jenna got some sort of weird craving,” I reasoned.  “Pregnant women do that, you know.  Hold on, I need to run upstairs for a minute.”

Finally, Jenna and Joey arrived, Jenna in all of her pregnant glory.  First stop: tour of the campus.  This was, after all, Joey’s first time at Cedarville.  We took him around and pointed out all of our favorite benches, all our favorite paths for walking, and all our least-favorite class rooms.

“Okay, so when do we get ice cream?”  Joey questioned.  “Jenna keeps telling me about this amazing ice cream.  And I wanna put pickles on it.”  Either the tour had made him strangely desirous of ice cream, or Jenna’s pregnancy cravings were seeping into his blood stream.

“Oh, we have to drive there.  Are you guys ready for that?  Then we can walk around Yellow Springs for a while.”

“Ugh, more walking.”  Jenna was usually about ten feet behind us when we were walking.  It’s not easy carrying two people around with you.

At Young’s Jersey Dairy, we ate ice cream, petted goats, and Jenna even tried to feed a goat ice cream.  Jess and I found a pumpkin patch which we tried to hide in, but some little kid found us.  We took the remainder of our cones to Yellow Springs and started meandering the streets.  Unfortunately, most of them were starting to close.  Naturally, we blamed Jenna for her slow walking.

We spent a good amount of time in the toy store, eventually buying something for our little nephew, Hank.  Then, we went and got smoothies.

“We have serious issues,” I suggested to the group.

“How do you figure,” Jess asked.

“Well, we’ve gone from ice cream cones to smoothies.  And now we’re getting ready to go eat dinner.”

We were standing out front of the smoothie shop, sitting at one of the tables.

“So, where do we want to go eat?”  Jess sipped her smoothie and thought vigorously.

“Well, you know …” Joey shot a look at Jenna.  “Jenna’s getting pretty tired.  She probably needs to lay down for a bit before the party tonight.  Can we meet up with you guys later and you can just go eat without us?”

Jess looked puzzled and disappointed.  After all, the main reason Jenna and Joey were there in the first place was to hang out with us—and they weren’t going to be there that long.  But babies always win.  That’s the rule.

“Sure.  We’ll just come find you guys are we eat,” I affirmed.

“Well, why don’t we all just go somewhere in Cedarville?  Subway?  Colonials?”  Jess suggested, trying to keep the group together.

“No, no.  Jenna has too many weird allergies.  We’ll just go grab something ourselves.  You two go eat somewhere else.”  Joey was weird.  And persistent.  And Jess wasn’t one to argue, so she gave up.

We waved goodbye to Jenna and Joey as they loaded into their car—luckily Jess and I had brought our own car.  “So, where do you want to eat,” I asked, poking Jess in the tummy.


As if it was even really an option.  The two of us had already started walking hand-in-hand in the direction of Williams, our favorite restaurant in Yellow Springs, before I had asked her the question.

It was an unusual time for dinner, so there was no wait before we were seated.  They sat us at a nice picnic-like table on the patio of the restaurant.  Like the sloppy gentlemen that I felt like at the moment, I headed straight for my chair and didn’t even think to pull the chair out for Jess.  I perused the menu as Jess talked about a million things: what a wonderful semester this was, how exciting it was for Jenna and Joey to be having a baby, how sad it was that they couldn’t come—should she graduate early?  Maybe go work at camp again next summer?

I focused intently on her.  But Jess seemed far away.  I mean, I could see her sitting there just fine—but I felt like I couldn’t reach out and touch her for some reason.  I tried, just to be sure.  Successfully, I grabbed her hand across the table.  Yep, still there.

I ordered the Salmon.  Jess ordered the Lomo Saltados.  We enjoyed our meal, but it ended too quickly, as it usually did.

“I thought of something,” I told Jess as we were leaving the restaurant after our meal.

“Yah, what’s that?” Jess said, reaching over and taking my hand.

“I have a present for you.  I will give it to you … momentarily.”

“But why can’t I have it now?” Jess asked giddily.  She did so love presents.

“I don’t know.  Just doesn’t feel right.”  I looked down at shoes and kicked a rock.

“Well, what would make it feel right?”

“I have just the thing!  But we’ll need to take a detour on the way home.”

We hopped in the car and began to drive, Jess pestering me as to the location of our drive, me still feeling like Jess was at the end of a long tunnel.  Her present was in the backseat, safely stored under a few sweatshirts.

As we pulled into the parking lot of Indian Mounds, Jess’ face lit up.  Her favorite surprises involved presents and walks, and our favorite place to walk was Indian Mounds!

She pulled out her phone and looked at the time, frowning a little bit.  “Um, shouldn’t we be getting back soon though?  I mean, people will be waiting for us at the party.”

“They’ll be fine, I’m sure.”  Reminiscent of months before, I got out of Josue, opened the back door, and pulled out two sweatshirts.

“Can I have my present yet?”  Jess said, bouncing up and down like a little girl that had to pee really bad.

“Nope.  But you do get to carry it.”  I withdrew a large gift bag from the backseat and closed the door.  I handed her the bag.  “It requires a sunset.”

“I know where we can see one of those!”  Jess grabbed my hand and pulled me down the path before I could finish pulling my sweatshirt on.  We had watched the sunset dozens of times from atop the Indian Mound at the end of the winding trail.  It was one of our favorite places not only because of it’s prime sunset-viewing potential, but because it was where I had first asked her to be my girlfriend.

She said …

The walk was a perfect idea.  Everything was going completely according to plan.  I had managed to keep Alex away from the house all afternoon, and was very proud of myself.  The afternoon had been so much fun, and little did Alex know, it was about to get much more exciting.  You see, he thought we were going back to the house just in time for our not-so-traditional Halloween Party.  What he didn’t know was that Kylee and I had been secretly planning a surprise birthday party for Alex for months.  When we returned from our impromptu walk in the park, he would find all of our friends hiding in the house, ready to jump out and wish him a happy 22nd birthday, which was in just a few days.  It was a perfect plan.

During dinner, I had started to wonder if Alex suspected something.  He seemed … distracted.  After ordering salmon, one of his favorites, he mostly just pushed the food around on his plate, barely eating any—very unlike him.  I also noticed that I had done most of the talking.  This wasn’t completely unusual, but Alex had been much quieter than normal.  I wondered if he was catching on but just trying to play it cool.  Although he was very good at surprising me, I’m not that great at surprising him—I get too excited to hold in secrets.

I had also gotten nervous when Joey suddenly announced that Jenna needed to go lie down.  Sure, she was rather, um, large.  But the plan had been for them to help me distract Alex all afternoon and evening until the party.  The two of them heading back to the house so early was way too risky—what if Alex had offered to go with them?  It could have ruined the whole plan.  Thankfully, Alex had suggested we stay in Yellow Springs.

But now, things were all coming together.  After a delicious dinner, a walk in the park, and a surprise present in my hand, Alex’s surprise birthday party would be the perfect end to a perfect day.  I was sure things couldn’t get any better.

He said …

As we walked, Jess kept glancing down into the big bag filled with tissue paper.  Trying to cheat and see what her present was before she got to the mound.  I jabbed her in the side and scowled at her.

Finally, we made it to the clearing where the enormous mound sat.  We headed for the long, wooden staircase and ascended the mound, skipping every other step.  Jess beat me to the top, plopping down facing the sun, setting her present beside her.  I sat down next to her and lay my head on her shoulder.

“Can I have my present now?”

“Not now.  The sun still hasn’t gone down!”

Jess furrowed her eyebrows at me, then stared intently at the sun as if she were making it go down faster with her gaze.  We sat there for a long time, but I don’t recall if we said much.  It was like any other time we watched the sun go down.  Sometimes, we just enjoyed spending the moment together, not saying a word.

As the sun dipped just below the tree line and I realized Jess wouldn’t be able to see her present if I didn’t give it to her soon, I turned to Jess.  “Okay, you can open your present now.”

Before I could even finish my sentence, Jess tore the tissue paper out of the bag and pulled the contents out into her lap.

She held her present high in the air triumphantly.  “A stuffed dog!  He’s so cute!”  She beamed as she pet his soft fur, glancing quickly back in the bag as if she thought there should be something more to the gift.  But there was nothing more in the bag.

“Yup, and you have to name him before we go back.”

“Hmm.”  Jess stared at the stuffed dog for a long time.  “What should I call him?”

“Well, I’ve been calling him Pumpkin.  I don’t know why.  It just seemed to have a ring to it.  But you can name him whatever you want.”

“Then Pumpkin it shall be!  Today is Halloween, so it’s a perfect name.”  Jess said, thrusting the puppy up into the air again.  She plopped him in her lap and threw her arms around me.  “He’s awesome.  The best puppy I’ve ever gotten.  Thanks.”

I pushed her nose and said, “So, you think the puppy can hold you over for a little while longer until you get a ring?”  She had been teasing me a lot about proposing to her.  Even though it was something we both knew was going to happen eventually, I hadn’t really given her a specific time frame.

Jess sighed.  “I supposed he could hold me off a little while longer.”

“How much time do you think he can buy me?”

Jess picked up Pumpkin and looked him mischievously in the eyes.  “I’d say … a week or so?”

“A week, huh?”  I said, smiling at Jess.  “What if he only had to buy you, say, thirty seconds?”

Jess looked at me puzzled.  I reached into my pocket and pulled out a little, maroon box.  I shifted myself to be in front of her and got down on one knee.  I said a lot of things, many of which I can’t remember, since the entire evening had really been a blur up until this moment.  But my speech was concluded with, “Jessica Nicole Rathburn.  I love you.  And I want to spend the rest of my life with you.  So will  you marry me and let me be your husband?”

I popped open the little box that contained a sparkly diamond ring from Helzberg diamond.

She said …

“You’re proposing to me now?!”

Alex snapped the box back shut.  “Well, I can wait a few more weeks if this isn’t a good time for you.

“No, no!  Open it back up!”  I pried the box back open.  “Yes, I’ll marry you!  I’ll be your wife!”

Blinking back tears of surprise and happiness, I scrambled to my feet and hugged Alex tight.  Was this really happening??

It was almost completely dark, so Alex flipped open his phone and directed its light to something very sparkly within the tiny box.  I gasped when I saw the light reflected back at me.  The ring was absolutely gorgeous—exactly what I would have picked out for myself.  Alex definitely knew me well.

I couldn’t take my eyes off of the ring, nor could I wrap my mind around that fact that Alex and I were engaged.  After the long, twisted path our friendship had taken, we were now going to get married!

As the sun faded completely behind the trees, we stayed on the hilltop, talking and soaking in every last bit of the moment we could.  Finally, we knew we had to head back because it was getting pretty dark.  Thankfully, we had made this walk back in the dark a few times before.

Suddenly, I felt my phone buzz in my pocket.  It was Kylee, asking where we were.  Oh shoot, the party!  With all of the excitement of Alex’s proposal, I had completely forgotten that there were a ton of people waiting at his house for his surprise birthday!  We had to get back—and fast!  As casually as I could, I tried to speed things along for our walk back.

Before long, we had made it back to Alex’s house.  Now, with a sparkly ring on my finger, I was even more excited for the party.  What a perfect time to announce our engagement, with all of our friends around to celebrate!

As we got the dark house and walked in, I shoved Alex forward, knowing that all of our friends were hiding in the darkness to surprise him.  Suddenly, the lights flipped on and everyone yelled “Surprise!”  I glanced around the room, and the first person I saw was my sister.  Wait, my sister?  A huge banner hung from the ceiling saying, “Congratulations Jess & Alex!”

Wait, what?  Suddenly, it all started to click.  I turned to Alex, tears back in my eyes, and saw him grinning from ear to ear.

He said …

[Two months earlier …]

“It has to be absolutely perfect, whatever I do,” I said to Kylee as we sat in The Irish Democrat eating our tasty burgers and discussing my impending engagement.  “Every girl wants to have the best proposal story.”

“Oh, absolutely.  So, what’s our timeline here?”

“I’m thinking … beginning of next semester.”

“So January or February.  Valentines Day?”  Kylee suggested.

“Ick.  Too many people do Valentines Day.  Besides, I hate Valentines Day.  I’d like to propose of my own volition, thank you very much.”

“Okay, no Valentines Day.  What other requirements.”

“Well, food, flowers, a walk, a party.”

“You’re going to have a hard time going on a walk in February in Ohio.”  Kylee pointed out.

“Aw, shucks, that’s a good point.”

“Well, how do you feel about the summer.”

“I love the summer,” I said.  “It’s my favorite season!  But it’s much too far away.”

“Okay.  Well, is the walk necessary?”

I looked at Kylee with one eyebrow raised.  “It’s Jess and me.  We don’t do anything without going on a walk at some point.  A walk is more necessary than the flowers are.”

Kylee thought for a moment.  Then nearly jumped out of her seat in excitement.  “I’ve got it!”  She cheered, loud enough that we got a few stares from other patrons of the restaurant.

“Hit me!”

“Can you do it by your birthday?”

“I suppose I probably could.  Why?”

“We throw you a surprise birthday party!”

“I don’t see how this benefits me proposing to Jess … and you kind of just ruined the surprise.”

“No, no.”  Kylee explained.  “It’s not really a birthday party for you.  It’s really an engagement party for her!”

I started tracking with where Kylee was going with this.  “Woah!  So you mean you’d tell her that she was planning a surprise birthday party for me.  And she’d do all the preparations for such an event.  And, inevitably for a surprise birthday party, you have to get the birthday boy out of the house … so when she gets me out of the house for a walk, I propose!”

“Bingo!”  Kylee high-fived me across the table.

“Okok.  However, my birthday is not on a weekend.  But Pyhäinpäivä is, and it’s just before my birthday!  What if we did some sort of a trio.  A Pyhäinpäivä celebration, which everyone expects, so she won’t expect me to get suspicious.  A birthday celebration, which will distract her from what’s really going on which is … a proposal celebration, which will be planned by you and me!”  This was an excellent plan, I thought.

Over the next couple of weeks, Kylee slowly put the idea of a surprise birthday party for me into Jess’ head.  “After all, you only turn twenty-two once,” she had said to her.  “We should make it special!”

Slowly, Jess began to accept the idea.  And Kylee was subtle enough that, eventually, Jess thought the surprise birthday party was her own idea!  After the idea had settled, Kylee fed Jess all the necessary information.  The date it needed to be, the people that needed to be invited, how to get me out of the house.

“Here’s an idea,” Kylee suggested to Jess one evening.  “You’ll want Jenna and Joey to come over for his birthday party, right?”  Jess nodded.  “Okay, so have them come over for the weekend so Joey can ‘tour the campus’, since he’s never been, and then you can use them to get Alex out of the house.”

This ended up being a fine idea, but I failed to realize that I would eventually want Jenna and Joey to leave so I could actually propose.  So, I used Jenna’s large belly to my advantage.  I told her to play sick so Jess and I could go out to eat on our own.  Luckily, Joey’s persuasive ways helped with this.  All the while, Jess was still convinced that the reason she was getting me out of the house was for her surprise for me, so she was completely surprised when she realized that I was proposing to her on our walk.

She said …

[After the engagement party …]

Alex and I were engaged.  Engaged!  I had never been so happy or excited in my whole life.  Once Alex explained how he had been planning the proposal and the party and every last detail, I was completely blown away.  I had my dream proposal, the kind that every girl hopes for.

Best of all, I had my dream fiancé, and I couldn’t imagine spending my life with anyone else.

To read the detailed version of the proposal, which Jess wrote right after it happened, click here.


“I am my beloved’s and my beloved is mine.”

-Song of Songs 6:3

Why I Love Alex – 4 Days

4 Days – I love Alex because … he is real.

A few days into this Why I Love Alex series, my pastor’s wife, Linda, jokingly asked me if Alex could do no wrong.  I laughed, but then later thought about it and realized, yes – he can, and does.  Now, I know that seems like a weird thing to say in a series about the things I love about my almost-husband, but that fact is one of the things I love so much about him.  Let me explain.

Alex is human – he messes up, makes mistakes, and has faults and regrets.  But he doesn’t hide or run from those things, or try to keep them hidden from me.  He embraces them as important aspects of what makes him him, and uses them as motivation to grow.  I love that he doesn’t put up a mask of having it all together, but still strives to be the best he can be.  It makes him very real, genuine, approachable and easily relate to.  It was one of th

e things I about him that I first took notice of, and has captivated me ever since.  He has always been up front with me about who he is – both the good and the bad, and readily admits to both.

To sum it up, Alex impresses me through his genuineness, not with false fronts of perfection.  I love that when I look at my Fancy, I see him, both the positives and negatives, because long ago, he trusted me enough to show me both.